| you read this yet? hmm i told you about it yesterday cuz i can't keep any freakin secrets about myself and my stuff. You said you didn't wanna read it then i was like ok then i'll delete them and then you were like NO i'll read it haha. so i wonder if you've read them yet. hmm well it's not 3 yet so i'll call you in 15. today was weird but lets just forget abotu it. This weekend what are we doing? tomorrow is my orchestra concert and you're coming over i'm excited and so not ready for this concert ahh stupid chem project it's due friday and i feel like there's a lot to do.. but there isn't i just wish i didn't hav eto do the stupid huckleberry finn book JESUS freakin sambas. i want a hug from you.. you looked cute today in your strawberry shoes =Di think i sniffed up pizza down the wrong throat hole and now it's stuck in my nose. yucky. ily.
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| 'm happy to have you. Just curious about your secrets and skeptical about all your ex's. Right now i'm talking to you on the telephone helping you with your lang/eng comp thingy. Today is one of those days. Those blah days and i'm also watching hercules. I have ot read freaking huckleberry fin later UGH. I guess you just don't see it the way i do. I wish you were semi-normal and just hated all your ex's instead of becoming friends with them. i'm like irritated but i don't want to be cuz it makes you angry but that in combination with your secret ex and how you still don't fully trust me is a little bothersome. ah i'll get over it by tomorrow. Then i get you into a bad mood and then we'll fight and it repeats. One of us needs to alter the pattern or this will never go on. Then when we fight i try and fix it and i end up being cheesy which just makes you angrier so then i just don't ever want to be cheesy which makes you think i don't care but i really do. I care about you more then anything else but it just seems hypocritical to me. You delete people from my myspace and aim who are my ex's or who you see as a threat but i can't do the same. All your ex's i see as threats especially those you don't want ot tell me about. But whatever maybe if i just give you time. maybe one day.
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| has been like blah. I'm home now and talking to you right now. Earlier when I talked to you though you seemed irritated even though you said you were fine. I think i know the reason why though, it's because your always the one to call me first. Then when i got home i planned to cal you and comment you on myspace "peek-a-boo I love you" but you commented me "homo =[" already. So it probably seemed like i was just replying to your comment but really i wanted to comment you first. Then i called you and you were on your way to china-a-go-go and then here i am on the phone with you right now and even though you sound fine i think your still a little bothered by it. Well i got cookie dough for you and i'm typing a note and hoping to make it unique for you tomorrow. I love you. Bear
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| I wonder if you're ever going to read this. Maybe a long time from now you'll be like hmm i havne't been on my xanga in a long time maybe someone left something for me. Well i did =D. Maybe when you read this we'll still be together too. I would love for that to come true. I'm sorry I don't always call you right away. I'm not sure exactly why i don't. It's not because I don't want to it's that keep having a though that i'm going to smother you and push you away but it ends up being the wrong thing and i wait to long to call. Well anyways I promise to make certain things come true by the end of this year:
1. Call you before you get to call me
2. Stop hurting myself
3. Make you super happy
4. Not get into a fight or unhappy for a week
As time goes on i'll probably keep writing and adding to your xanga. Maybe it'll become a whole story. =D
I hope you change your password on this thing. I love you joanna squirrel cheeks 
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| Hey koala bear,
I like that name =D and I love you. Your so amazing you don't even know it. I can never repay you for being such a great person and dealing with all the crap I've put you through. I love you with all my heart and soul. I wish I could show it more and express it more then just through words because words just aren't enough to describe how magificent you are. You mean everythnig to me and if anything were to happen to you I don't know what I'd do with myself. I just can't imagine living without you know. It's only been 2 months but it really does feel much longer. I've learned so much about you and the more I learn the more I fall in love with you. I want you to know that these past couple of days have meant everything to me. It showed me how much you really care. Hopefully I can do just the same because you deserve it and much more. I wonder if you can feel my emotions in this letter just like my other letter, since words don't come close to describing this feeling of wonderfulness in me. =D
I love you,
Your Bear 
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